Archive for June, 2009

I was kinda having a bad day the other day– everything just seemed to snowball .  I try not to stay “depressed”– most of my life I’ve been pretty good at getting through “despite” everything else (you call it denial, I say great coping mechanisms). Anyway, no matter how bad things seem I usually am able to be grateful because I know how lucky I am compared to some and that my idea of suffering pales in comparison to so many unfortunate people around the world. (When was the last time you had to watch as your children starved or were murdered by warlords?)

But today I was a little down, and once there’s a chip in the armor sometimes that’s all it takes to release the floodgates. So there I was, sitting on Facebook taking all those stupid quizzes I make fun of (BTW, I am 73% gay and my true ethnicity is white) with silent tears streaming down my cheeks. (I know, right? How pitiful is that?) I finally got up before I started one of those gardens or farms and went outside and jumped in the pool with the boy, fully clothed. It felt exhilarating, and Jay couldn’t believe it. Megan was napping so I got to play with him, really play. Without yelling at him to stop tormenting his sister or correcting him for something that really doesn’t matter. Sometimes I’m so busy teaching, disciplining, worrying and butting heads with Jay that I forget to just have fun with him.

And I could use a little more fun. I’m so uptight sometimes, so bunched up with worry that I forget that this is the only shot we get, both in our lives and our children’s childhoods. Sometimes we can’t help the crappy stuff that happens to us, but we can control how we deal with it. When I got water in my ears Jay said, “Just tilt your head like this and thump all the smart stuff out.” That struck me as really funny, and I agreed, sometimes you need to just let all that smart stuff out and relax.


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hearing aidsWow,  Jay’s new hearing aids are AWESOME.  He just got them yesterday and although the audiologist warned that Jay might not like them at first because the higher frequency sounds (that he really wasn’t hearing before) would sound scratchy, the kid is LOVING them.  Just a few minutes ago he came into the kitchen sliding his feet on the hardwood floor, making a soft swishing sound.  “Can you hear that?” he asked me with a big grin on his face.  I can’t even tell you how cool that was.  I asked if he could hear that with his old hearing aids and he said no.  I’m not sure exactly how these new hearing aids work, (actually, the pamphlet calls them a hearing system) all I know is that I’m so grateful we live in a time of such incredible medical and technological advances.  I’m so optimistic about what will be available for Jay in the future.

Also, these hearing aids are water resistant, although I hope they are never submerged like the picture– I think I would have a minor heart attack.  I once had to act fast and scoop one of Jay’s hearing aids out of the toilet– a dirty toilet.  I know, ew, right?  But those things make such a difference in our lives.  This past week we’ve gone without because Jay’s old hearing aids have not been working.  I didn’t realize how much we take those things for granted sometimes until we went through a whole week of him barely understanding what we said. 

It’s great that these new aids won’t be damaged by Jay’s sweat as he runs around in this hot Georgia weather.  We’ve had such problems in the past with moisture because the kid’s a sweater  (that word doesn’t look right– like I’m calling him a wool pullover or something).  He gets it from his Dad, they both sweat buckets when they’re hot.  I, on the other hand, perspire very little.  It’s almost freakish– I just get really red in the face and look like I’m about to pass out. 

These new  hearing aids are also Bluetooth compatible, so in the future we can buy attachments that will allow him to talk on the phone, something he loves to do but struggles with.  It’s pretty much a one-sided conversation because he can’t hear your answers, but then most conversations with an 8-year-old probably revolve around them anyway.  The Bluetooth can also be connected to the t.v. (although ours is probably too old for this technology)  to allow direct audio input into his ears.  And of course they are FM compatible, which allows you to speak into a small microphone so that your voice feeds directly into his hearing aids over other noises– what mother wouldn’t love that?  I’ll try not to let the power get to my head too much once we get that accessory, although it’ll be nice not to have to scream like a maniac across the playground.

Now, if only these new devices would check homework and remind him to brush his teeth.

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